One Week...

Instead of spending the past week actively doing things, I've just been too tired to do very much aside from going to work, and occasionally working out. All the fun artistic activities I thought I'd be spending my time doing haven't even been attempted.

It's not as if I'm depressed or something, I've actually been fine. Aside from life throwing me a huge curveball, and having it knock the wind out of me, I'm okay. I just have spent my free time reading, and watching movies or TV shows I always wanted to get into (Dead Like Me, and 30 Rock).

So if you've been wondering why I haven't been posting, it's not because every computer I have access to broke...it's not because I'm so lonely/sad that I won't crawl out of bed long enough to post something. I just haven't done much worth writing about. My most exciting adventure was to the mall, I can't resist a good semi-annual sale, and I definitely left the mall a little poorer, but with bags of cute clothes in my arms.

I am now at that halfway point, it's been exactly 7 days since Kyle left, and I only have 7 days left until I'm headed towards the lovely San Diego. I don't think I've ever been so excited to go home...aside from the possibility of not seeing one of my best friends, everyone else is in SD, for the first time in a really long time. It's so exciting, especially because I haven't seen a handful of those friends in about 6 (long) months!

It's going to be so nice to just do all of my favorite things with all of my favorite people! On my must-do list so far I have down Brazilian Bowls, Hookah, The Beach, Balboa Park, & The Del Mar Fair. I also already have plans to see Eclipse with Sahar, Claire, and Olivia on Wednesday night...and I'm having dinner/drinks with Megan Friday night. I don't have official plans with Sarah yet, but trust me, I will be spending A LOT of time with my lovely soul sister! The quince is on Saturday...and Sunday, I'm definitely feeling a giant get-together/BBQ and of course, watching the fireworks.

One week, it's all I have to get through, and I can do it! Being patient is SO annoying, but really, I have no other choice. Unless someone discovered how to fast-forward through time? No? Well, you should all keep trying.

Have a nice day, everyone!

See you soon, San Diego!

Some Important People

Last week, it was both my Dad's birthday, and then my sister's the day after his. So, Happy Birthday, you crazy kids!

My relationship with my Dad has gotten a lot better since I moved out, and it's a lot easier for me to set aside any resentment/hurt feelings with all this distance. Whenever we talk on the phone or see each other, it's usually/mostly always pleasant :) Hugs and saying "I love you" have become a frequent part of our relationship, which in my book is a lot better than ignoring each other aside from a few smiles here and there. Yes, I guess I'm just another girl with "daddy issues", but really, I'm working on being forgiving and understanding, and it's not easy. But we're in a good place, and it makes me happy/relieved. His health and the future is still as rocky and uncertain as ever, and I'm glad our relationship actually exists and isn't tainted by resentment/anger/pain. Well, it might be a little bit, but it has gotten a lot better! His kidney is reaching the end of its days, and he'll probably begin dialysis within the next year...it's scary thinking of how difficult those times are going to be on my family. Hopefully he sets his stubbornness aside and gets on the donor waiting list...my Mom can't save him at the last minute this time.

I love my Dad, I really do. Despite everything, I still love him.

My little sister was born the day after my Dad's birthday, and last Thursday she turned 15! It's both crazy and exciting to think of how old she is and how much she's grown. I remember when I was 15, it was 6 years ago, which is crazy to think about, because it feels like it was just yesterday! 6 years from now I'll be 27, and she'll be 21! How strange!! haha. I still think of her as my baby sister...and I think I always will. She's been in a relationship with Ryan for almost an entire year now...which surpassed my expectations (no offense) just because I remember what high school was like. Aside from Kyle, I had never been in a relationship for that long! I'm so proud and happy for her, she's been through a lot, and she's grown into a wonderful young lady whom I gladly call one of my best friends :) Her Quinceanera is in 19 days! I'm so excited, it's such an exciting and important day in her life.

I love you Sahar! You're my favorite baby-girl! :)

Speaking of love. being proud, and best friends, my dearest best friend in the whole world, Sarah Marie Dozier, is now a college graduate! It's funny to say, but I look up to Ms. Dozier, I always have. I am so proud of all she's done, and how she's overcome so much to be where she is. Her determination and motivation are something I strive to attempt, lol. She's beautiful, amazing, and well on her way to an amazing life. I can't imagine her moving so far away from me, but even if we're bad at keeping in touch, she'll always have a piece of my heart with her. Love you, forever and ever, Soul Sister! :D

Sarah Marie Dozier

~Our Senior Prom '07~

On this glorious day, 21 years ago, my beautiful best friend was born, Sarah Marie Dozier (soon to be Durr)! Her lovely mother gave birth to my soul mate, and so I'm forever thankful. Let me clarify, I know Kyle is my soul mate in the romantic sense, but Sarah and I's souls are the different sides of the same coin. She's beautiful, intelligent, and sorry lads, engaged to a man who's her romantic soul mate :)

Dearest Egyptian twin sister goddess, Sehkmet, I love you, and I hope your day is fantastic in every way possible! You're absolutely brilliant, and I can't wait for us to be reunited this verano! Me+You+drinks+sunshine=Summer of Loooove! hahaha! Also, please let's get inked, celebrating our 7 year relationship? :D

Besitos,
Bastie Boo

p.s. we need to take more pictures together! haha