Lost...

Oh dear...
It all started when our friend Jenny convinced her boyfriend Diego to watch Lost (the first 5 seasons) so he can get all caught up so he can watch it with her.

Kyle's family used to watch Lost, so he's seen the first like 3 seasons, but he stopped watching after then. So of course, as Diego is watching more and more Lost, he's talking about it more and more with Kyle. And what does Kyle have to do? Talk to me about it...however, I've never seen the show (though I did know the basic gist of it) he decided to add all 5 seasons to our Instant Queue...and the past couple of days (in between all the other things we've been doing) have been devoted to Lost!

I now know why everyone was SO addicted to the show!! I'm so glad I started watching it so late, because instead of having to wait every week/between seasons, I can watch them all in a row :)
(haha, I'm horrible!)

But to be honest, I'm getting a little tired of all the unanswered questions! I just want to know what's going on! At least with movies, after 2 hours you get closure, but no...something crazy happens like every episode!

Sigh...and do you know what I'm going to do once I'm done typing this all out?

I'm going to go back to watching Lost...it's a sickness, really.

The Phone Call

Scene: the living room, we're taking an afternoon nap before completely being engulfed by school work...when the phone rings.


I look at my phone, the number says "with held", normally I wouldn't answer a number I don't recognize, but for some reason I did. Maybe it's because I've been applying to a lot of jobs, and I would've kicked myself if I missed a call from a potential employer. Here's the conversation:


Me: "Hello?"
Unrecognizable Male Voice: "Hi"
Me:"Hi..."
UMV: "You sound sad, is everything ok?"
Me: (slightly taken aback by the question) "What? Uh, yeah, I'm fine."
UMV: "Are you sure? You sound like something's wrong..."
Me: "Oh, uh, no." (trying to figure out who it is, because I can almost place the voice...)
UMV: "Oh, ok. Well, Happy 7 Month Anniversary"
-awkward pause-
Me: "Oh, um, I think you have the wrong number, who is this?"
UMV: "Ryan?"
Me: "Yeah...you have the wrong number, sorry."
UMV: "Oh..." (hangs up, just as I realize he might be Sahar's Ryan)


Me (to Kyle): "That was really weird...but I think it might have been Sahar's boyfriend."


(Phone Rings)


Me: "Hello?"
Ryan: "Who is this?"
Me: "Is this Sahar's Ryan??"
Ryan: "Yeah?"
Me: (laugh) "This is Sety!"
Ryan: "What? Do you have her phone or something?"
Me: "No! This is so weird, are you sure you're calling the right number?"
Ryan: "Yeah, I don't even have your phone number! Are you guys messing with me?!"
Me: "No! No, no! I'm in Seattle! I'm not even in San Diego! Haha, you should just call her on the house phone..."


{Story Short: My sister's phone calls are being forwarded to my phone for some unknown reason...it's been quite hilarious.}

What an Ordinary Life!

So I've been "distracted" this week, I guess...at the very least, I totally forgot about my little blog! So sorry!

Anyway, my week was...pretty ordinary. Lots of reading/studying. A good amount of shopping...mostly groceries...oh, and my poor loofah died, so I bought a new one...as well as a comfy fuzzy sweater :)

I've been reading the Percy Jackson & the Olympians series, and can I just say they are ADDICTING! But they're kids books, so I read through them super quickly, but they're entertaining! I read the 3rd one in one sitting...about 4 hrs...sadly, I had bought the 4th and 5th ones on Amazon like a week ago, and they're not getting here for so long! Like the beginning of February long! And THEN Amazon decided to split up my shipping to "benefit" me except for the fact that they're sending me the 5th one first :(

Oh, my brother got arrested for Thursday night...not for anything serious. Not for anything, actually. My parents own a dealership, and he was just getting his car from the lot. Cops thought he was breaking in...one ridiculous big misunderstanding. Sure, the cops can catch my brother "breaking" in, but they couldn't catch any of the real criminals who've broken into their place.

I aced my psych exam, which was super awesome! I have so much work due by Monday though :(

Sigh, my life is kind of boring, sorry world! lol :)

The Civic

Oh how that Honda Civic has been missed, and will continue to be missed. In that glorious little car, Kyle and I shared many happy memories. I can not even remember how many nights I snuck out of my house, and into that car. Sunroof opened up so we could count the stars, the seats reclined all the way back. In front of my house, around the corner from my house...in the Dailard parking lot...
Oh Dailard, you weren't my elementary school, but I spent a lot of time in your parking lot. Remember that first night in the parking lot? Kyle and were just "friends" then...it was incredibly late, and we were listening to music, Kyle trying (and succeeded) to impress me by using his phone to give his laptop wifi, and hooking it up to the speakers of his car, so we could listen to whatever we want. You asked me to name a band, I said the Doors. Before you could ask me what song, you were already playing it...we laid there listening to "Light my Fire", I blushed and said you read my mind. We sang along and shared that intimate moment...then we continued talking about music. Discovering my favorites were your favorites, talking about our most embarrassing favorite songs and bands. You gushed over the All American Rejects, I tried to get you to appreciate Paramore's first album.
What about that one night. We were dating now, and we were still sneaking out and spending the night in the Dailard parking lot. We weren't listening to music then, I was curled up next to you and we were talking about the stars. It got quiet, and I asked "Tell me a secret...something that no one else knows". You looked me in the eyes, and I knew what you were going to say...what we both wanted to say but couldn't find the courage. Well my dear, you took the opening, and you said "I love you". My heart melts a little every time I look back on this. Your eyes were so honest, you almost whispered it, you looked so vulnerable because for some reason you didn't know how I'd respond. I laughed and, then I knew you were being honest. I asked "are you being cute, or are you being serious?" You gave me a nervous smile and said "both?". We leaned in and kissed, and I pressed my forehead against yours and said "I love you too".

Learning to Breathe

So I don't think I've mentioned this before, but I think I've developed a heart condition called supraventricular tachycardia. I know that Web MD isn't the only source for medical advise, but it's a pretty good one. So I typed in all of my symptoms, rapid heart rate accompanied by pulsating (literally feeling it beating heavily in your chest), dizziness/blurred vision, accompanied by nearly fainting, and difficulty breathing. Now, I could just be having panic attacks or something of the same psychological source, (though I doubt it considering Kyle can also feel my heart's abnormal behavior, and he had to help me keep my balance the couple of times I've momentarily lost consciousness) but either way, these past few days have been an attempt to learn how to breathe.

These miniature heart attacks are incredibly scary. I was in the bedroom making copies of an assignment, when I fell forward, luckily I didn't mess the copy up. All of last weekend and this Monday and Tuesday, these mini heart attacks have been coming and going, Monday they were quite frequent (a couple of times every hour). At the store I had a moment of sheer darkness, Kyle was showing me something, and while he was talking I lost consciousness. If you ask him, I just started moving like I couldn't balance and I had to hold onto him for support. My eyes were open, but I couldn't see a thing.


However, these past few days I've been taking it easy, and to be honest, I've been feeling a lot better. I've been resting a lot, the mini attacks don't happen when I'm lying down. I was going to see a doctor, but I think I'll wait it out considering the only way to confirm my medical concerns would be to be with a doctor while having an episode, and because that's nearly impossible to do, they would give me a little device that tracks my heart rate for a day or two until they catch an episode. With all this lying down, I haven't experienced an episode since Tuesday. Well, I've had a few brief moments when my heart started pulsating and my breathing got difficult, but lying down and deep breathing helps.


What I need to do is have a day where I'm out and about the entire day and see if that makes a difference...

Poetry in the Night

There where the waves shatter on the restless rocks
the clear light bursts and enacts its rose,
and the sea-circle shrinks to a cluster of buds,
to one drop of blue salt, falling.

O bright magnolia bursting in the foam,
magnetic transient whose death blooms
and vanishes--being, nothingness--forever:
broken salt, dazzling lurch of the sea.

You & I, Love, together we ratify the silence,
while the sea destroys its perpetual statues,
collapses its towers of wild speed and whiteness:

because in the weavings of those invisible fabrics,
galloping water, incessant sand,
we make the only permanent tenderness.

Pablo Neruda

The first week in 2010

The first week of  2010 started so great, ended so horribly, and now, when I have some spare time, I guess I'll explain.
I was so optimistic, and there's nothing wrong with that. Perhaps everything going so right, is the reason everything went so wrong. Thursday night/Friday morning was a time of no sleep, lots of stress, lots of sadness, and in general, a great feeling of hopelessness I never wish to experience again. I won't go into details for privacy's sake, but I'll just say that the only bright side was that it was resolvable, it just needed time. Upon arriving at my parent's home, absolutely exhausted, and with my mother fully aware of it, she decided to unload her feelings on a topic also too private to openly discuss. After all that had happened, she picked the worst time to talk about this. I stormed out of the house crying, with a dying cell phone, and not much else. I walked to the park 5 minutes away from my house, sat at a bench, and cried some more. In all honesty, it was the worst day I had had in a LONG time. The worst part being that I was so alone in my misery, and the one person I wanted to talk to more than anyone was unreachable for the time being.
A few minutes later, my brother texted me with some overtly ridiculous solutions to what he thought was bothering me, I explained that our mother was the current problem, and because he's my big brother and looks out for me, he snuck me into his room and created a mini-refuge (have I mentioned how much I love him?). My mom, feeling guilty for her actions called me and asked me to come home (not knowing I already was there) after a tearful apology, we hugged, I went into the guest bedroom and slept for hours.


When I woke up, it was nearly time to get ready for the "baby jesus party" which I was afraid wasn't going to be very successful (for me at least), however, everything turned out alright. With the exception of my dying cell phone, who now claims my SIM card is missing or inactive (neither of which are true), so Kyle tried throwing my SIM card into his phone, and it didn't work there either. Sigh...so I now need to get it examined.


San Diego was a fun/stressful trip, and I can honestly say I am glad to be back in my comfy apartment with time to just focus on me/my interests.
This morning was a pretty good indication that my luck is turning around...I think I mentioned this before, but because we had to park in the airport parking lot, we were going to have to pay $416...however, we found a ticket that was dated 1/07/2010, so we only had to pay $78! We stopped to get air in our tires before  heading home cause they were pretty low, experienced little to no traffic, grabbed some groceries, stopped at the bank to make some deposits, lugged our bags upstairs, got the mail, made a sammich, then planned on going to the Att store...and instead passed out for a couple of hours.


All in all, I'm still feeling optimistic, and tomorrow's gonna be a good day :)

First Post in 2010

I know it's a little late...but here it is...my first thoughts in the new year.

All I can say is that little 'ole me is striving for greatness, and hopefully this year will be a good one (though to be honest, it feels like I'm about "due" for a bad year).

I want to continue to do well in school, find a job that I enjoy, maybe do an internship on the side, work out frequently, save some money for travels this summer, figure out what I want to do with me life, and overall, be happy.

School starts next week! I just bought books, which reminds me that I need to sell last quarter's books! I'm kind of excited for classes, I'm taking an Environmental Issues course, a Geology lab, and a Human Sexuality course.

I've got a fancy new camera as my companion, and I can't wait to take pictures back home!

Things have been a little emotionally shaky for me recently, but it's all fixable. I was just feeling unloved/abandoned/forgotten by some friends...however, I was just being overly emotional, and after a good hang out session, I'm feeling better. Hopefully this Friday will bring me the comfort I need!

Overall, I'm very excited because I think/hope this year is going to be a good one! I turn 21, my sister turns 15, I'm going to get a job/finally finish settling into a new life in Seattle, I'm going to stick my to my "resolution" of getting into shape because hopefully (given that we save enough money) we're going to Costa Rica this summer! We got invited by a friend of ours, and I really want to make it happen! However, it'd be nice not to feel self conscious in a bathing suit, and seeing as it's Costa Rica, and I'm assuming much time will be spent in a bathing suit, it's my leading goal to getting fit (and of course to be healthy and yada yada yada). Kyle's brother's graduating from high school, so is the twin's brother! Little Paul Gordon might actually be going to UW, so maybe I'll be seeing him around the city! I've even got a friend (I won't mention names because nothing is certain yet) who's considering moving to Seattle! Lots of excitement! :)

Hurray for the New Year!
I wish everyone a happy and successful 2010!