Saturday, February 27, 2010

formspring.me

why is Sarah M. Dozier so in love with you? :)
Because a couple of years ago, we time-traveled and discovered our true identities. We are the reincarnates of the Egyptian Goddesses Sekhmet and Bastet! Therefore, we are both sisters, and eternally in love with each other! Which is why we spend so much time frolicking, cooking, eating, watching foreign films, and visiting museums (whenever we can, that is)!! Oh, and did I mention we're soul mates? :D

Friday, February 26, 2010

Banana Bread

 
    1/2 cup brown sugar
    1/2 cup white sugar
    1/2 cup vegan margarine (you can also use eggs or canola oil or applesauce)
    1 teaspoon vanilla
    1/4 cup soy milk (you can also use almond or rice milk)
    3 mashed ripe bananas
    1-2 cups whole wheat flour (depending on consistency)
    1/2 teaspoon baking powder
    1 teaspoon cinnamon
    1/4 teaspoon cloves- optional
    1/2 teaspoon salt- optional
    1/2 cup pecan crumbs- optional
    1/2 teaspoon of nutmeg- optional
    1/2 cup chocolate chips- optional
    1/2 cup of raisins- optional

This recipe has a lot of room variety, as well as room for personal taste! This time, I decided to do a nutmeg/raisin bread...but to be honest, any of the options work well together, and if I had pecans, I would've added them! [also, those are just some personal favorites of different variations, don't be afraid to include whatever you want!]

Directions:

1) Preheat oven to 350 degrees Fahrenheit.

2) Mix together all dry ingredients in a large bowl.

3) In a separate bowl, beat together all wet ingredients.

4) Pour wet ingredients into dry while stirring, only stir until everything is combined. Don't over stir.

4) Pour into a greased bread pan and bake for 30 to 40 minutes (about 20 minutes if you make cupcakes, and up to 60 minutes if you bake it into a loaf)

(You're looking for golden brown! Also as is with other breads, stick a toothpick in to test the insides. If the toothpick comes out clean, good job! If not, the center is not fully cooked and needs a little more time!)

11:48pm

My bedroom windows are a little thinner than the ones in the living room (I think).

In the morning I can hear people as they get into the cars and leave for work, or school, or wherever. I can hear the family downstairs, the kids are loud, sometimes laughing and singing, sometimes grumpy and complaining.

Every night when I get back into bed and I hear a car door shut, and their car horn beeps once to let them know their doors are locked...I secretly hope that it's Kyle. That he hasn't been gone for 8 days now, this entire time he was just at the store, and that he's on his way up. I don't hold my breathe, but I know my ears are perked up a little more, hoping that I'll hear the front door unlocking and opening. That I'll hear him as he throws off his shoes and walks down the hall.

[I know it's not going to happen, but I can't help but torment myself this way.]


Thursday, February 25, 2010

formspring.me

What was the happiest moment in your life?
When Kyle told me he loved me...I knew that I loved him, and I knew he loved me, but hearing it for the first time, was beautiful...and the way he said it, no three words had ever been spoken so softly, lovingly, timidly, and yet passionately.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Go Ahead!

2/24/10

I couldn't sleep last night, at all, I can guarantee you I didnt fall alseep until somewhere close to 4-5am...I had turned off the lights, turned everything off since 1am in order to wake up early so I could make an important phone call....I set multiple alarms...and for some reason or another, my mind would not shut off! I was thinking about a lot of things, doing the usual, imagining fake scenarios of the phone call I was going to make...I was pretty nervous/anxious but excited at this new job prospect! The pay and hours are pretty damn good, and I'd be working with babies, and I LOVE babies! :)

After falling asleep, I woke to my first alarm at 9am...and because I hadn't gotten much sleep, I let myself doze a little longer, and at around 9:30 I dragged myself out of bed. I went to the bathroom, made myself some tea, did my morning stretches, and stared at my phone for a bit. I couldn't get past how to ask for Denise when I called..."Hi, may I please speak to Denise?" threw me back into the 6th grade when I didn't have a cell phone and called all my friends on their house phones, and that's what I always said when I called a friend. I couldn't say that, it'd be ridiculous sounding...too childishly polite. But I was so tired and nervous, I couldn't think of anything. So I called Kyle...luckily, he had a functioning brain at the time and told me I could say something like "Hi, I'm calling for Denise" but I thought that sounded not polite enough. Then he said, well, then just say "Hi, may I speak to Denise?" and I loved him a little bit more for making my day a little bit easier. He wished me luck and I called...

I got a voicemail that sounded a little too much like a personal voicemail, but I decided, well, maybe that's her cell phone number. Then paranoia hit me and I wondered if I called the right number. I hadn't...whoops! Someone's getting a strange voicemail that won't make sense to them! So, then I called the right number, and at the last minute said "Hi, I'm calling for Denise" (dang it!) I still had to leave a message, luckily it was with someone who works at 'Lil Acorn Sprouts. I left my number and name and the lady told me Denise would call me back.

Denise called, we had a nice chat, and I have an interview/try-out next Tuesday! Hopefully I won't be so nervous I mess up. It makes me wish Kyle (or anyone) was here for emotional support. If I let myself over think things, I get overly-nervous. Somehow, I'm going to have to keep myself calm all the way on the drive over, and while I'm there. I'd be great as a Toddler Assistant Teacher, I love babies! Luckily, I had an interview last Friday that I nailed...it was just the job I didn't nail. Sharie said she was very impressed with my interview, and that it was a really tough decision, and that any school would be lucky to have me (sweet, right?)!

AND this job pays better, has better hours, and despite it being on Mercer Island and I'll probably get stuck in traffic coming home everyday, I'd really like the job!

Also, I think my working out has been paying off! Or maybe my perspective's slightly off, either way. It feels good to move! I've also been drinking a lot of water, because that's what I used to do, and it really makes me feel good to be nice and hydrated. Also, I can avoid the extra sugars that are in juice if I limit my intake! :)

Things are going pretty good right now!

I think I'm going to stop

posting surveys as bulletins on Myspace...it's actually the only reason I go on Myspace :/  lol, I think I can just post them here...



hmmmm....idk if it's had a highlight just yet...perhaps getting an interview with this better job prospect? :)


my little cookie monster, we went out for a spin!


um...one week and 4 days...sigh...


pink (it's actually a nightdress, lol, but w/e)


to my shoulders! (wow!)


i like to think so! ;)


umm, i watched a little bit of the Tracey Fragments this morning...but i stopped...not out of boredom, but i had a lot on my mind and couldn't focus on it.


all by my lonesome!


cereal :)


soymilk


it's never been broken...battered, but not broken.


no one, lol. well, i guess technically tonie, but that was MONTHS ago, lol


ehh, i wouldn't say "happy" but i'm not sad/upset/or anything...i'm kind of excited for my job interview, but also a little nervous.


"okay, love you! goodnight!"


charging on my bedside table


dark brown


no, i'm a righty


strh shkr


my kitty cat Bambina (i miss her!)


my trip to the east coast, even if it was hectic/crazy, it was still great!


sleeping alone.


Phoenix! well, my Phoenix station on Pandora, and they're currently on it :)


For Kyle to be here...or at least have the power of teleportation.


the rose one by Dolce & Gobbana


Kyle!


HW?


May 9th! :)


idk? no one i know...


last summer! :(


ehh, if i stumble across it in a magazine, i'm not going to NOT look at it, lol


QFC...some foodies


ehh, it's alright :)


no.


my ring is the most expensive jewelery i have, but it wasn't ridiculously expensive (luckily)

 


i like facebook a lot more, i hardly ever use myspace anymore


90's...on the 5N in the middle of no where! lol


yeah


idk, social sciences/humanities/art history are usually my favorite


no, AT&T


the smart, funny, cute kind


no? lol


um, idk...lol currently it's 1901 by Phoenix i guess...or inside and out, i'll love that song forever


in the car...or in the shower...or when i'm alone


idk...


immediate family? San Diego...everyone else is pretty scattered as far as Iran, as close as Mexico.


i have an older brother and sister, and a younger sister.


in some respects compared to some people, yes, but also no.


i don't remember


socially...


spanish, and a bit of french.


lol, when i was little


yeah, i was a junior bridesmaid in my sister's wedding.


no


nope


kyle's mom's middle school best friend, lol


yup


nope


i guess...


i'm listening to music, filling this out, and i'm on gchat...so yes.


i don't know her personally.


umm i get sick of doing dishes by hand, my hands get all dried out :(


to QFC


Mexico & Canada


San Diego, CA


nope.


this might sound horrible, but i don't know, i'm on my parent's family plan...


kyle...


when i was on the phone with sahar earlier :)


uhh, too many, lol 23-ish? :D


they're never painted..


eight


calling and setting up a job interview, which i'll hopefully go to later today. eating, homework, cleaning, boring stuff.


yeah, for my 19th bday we went to the casino! i won $5 :)


i'm going to change that to blog...and say earlier today.


like disneyland roller coasters, not 6 flags roller coasters!


DISNEYLAND!! :)


Spongebob! or Patrick :) haha


enchiladas! nom nom nom


45 degrees and it's raining.


yeah, lol


drop it?


it's been a while, luckily!


CA and now WA!


no, i like my cozy apartment :)


no, i've never even heard of that site before...


1964 mustang! haha, idk, those cars are super sexy...but i'd take a VW bus too! :P


that used to be the story of my life...until i met kyle that is.


in kyle's arms...

yeah :)

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Heinz ...

One day all of your products will be Minez! haha, so it's kind of a personal goal to photograph all of the Heinz products, all 57 of them :) Here are a few random ones I've found recently!

*This project obviously excludes Ketchup, Mustard, and Relish...because I consider those to be the only Heinz products I ever knew about, lol*


[Heinz Beans & Heinz Curry Beans]

[Heinz Tomato Soup & Heinz Potato & Leek Soup & Heinz Vegetable Soup]

[Heinz Salad Cream]

[Heinz Spotted Dick & Heinz Treacle Sponge Puddings]

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Sigh...

Last night was the worst...well, nights are horrible to begin with.
Everything's so quiet, the apartment feels even emptier when I retreat into the bedroom.
And then I have to be in a giant queen size bed, well it's not that it's really a giant queen size, it's a normal queen size, but it feels so big because I'm so small...

So there I was in my way-too-big-for-me bed, trying not to focus on how quiet it was, trying not to think about how empty the apartment felt, just simply trying to sleep. When it dawned on me that I'm going to have to do this for another 14 nights (details really aren't necessary, but if you wish to know why, ask me later). In the dark of night, alone with my thoughts, 14 nights seemed like the longest time ever (it still kind of feels like that).

Sigh, I just don't know what to do with myself. Mornings are kind of bad because I'm still so miserable from the previous night, I just want to hide under the covers. Days are fine, because I can preoccupy myself with my lappy, the TV, doing art, working out, cooking, cleaning, I can call people for company if need be, etc.

But nights, oh how I dread the nights.

they just make me feel so small and insignificant, so alone and forgotten.


Saturday, February 20, 2010

So Pretty

I'm not looking to plan anything any time soon, but I stumbled upon these style boards, and I absolutely adore them! The colors are so beautiful!
[To view them in full size, click on the pictures. Trust me, you'll be glad you did!]


Art Project: Recycling

So, I have a bunch of recyclable materials just sitting in the living room...endless boxes, and egg cartons, paper bags, etc. I've decided to make some recycled art...and instead of writing an epically long entry, I'm just going to post some pictures.  :)


Thursday, February 18, 2010

Quiet Day

Kyle left for SD last night...somehow I managed to make it home and park (without scratching the car, lol). So far I'm doing okay...I retreated from the living room into the bedroom last night...just 'cause it felt less lonely...I watched Bedtime Stories on Netflix (it was better than I expected).


This morning I was kind of slow moving...despite the fact that it's a beautiful day outside...I can't really bring myself to go out. Driving in the Jeep makes me nervous, lol...it's so big :/ and parking makes me nervous!


So, instead, I've been keeping busy indoors...I did the dishes, did some laundry, cleaned the kitchen, took care of the excess cardboard boxes...and started an art project, which I'll post a picture of once I'm done with it...


I'm currently killing some time while the paint dries by watching TV...and I've got a potato baking in the oven for lunch :)

 *******************

I would just like to update this and say that my new catch phrase is "Bitch, please!" (thanks MG) ...Craig Ferguson is hilarious...nights are less lonely when spent talking/catching up with friends...I'm quite the procrastinator, but I'm wonderful at it...Peanut Butter Banana Honey Cinnamon Sammiches make me miss Kyle...so does the song (cover) Inside and Out by Feist [just because we both have waaayy to much fun singing along/dancing to that song 'cause we're dorks and will listen to it on repeat all day! haha]
BUT
I survived the first day alone just fine, and I know tomorrow will be okay, I've got a job interview and a few chat dates to keep me company! :)

Nighttime is the worst...but I think I can handle it.
Goodnight World!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Fort Amore

It started with a fort that I built the morning of February 14th, 2010. It was made of endless pillows and blankets...and the password was "Be Mine".


For Valentine's day this year, we didn't do anything extravagant. Aside from the fort, and making food, we didn't do much (aside from enjoy eachother's company). Kyle made breakfast in bed (fort)...I made gnocchi for dinner (yes, I made them myself!) I hope everyone else had a love-filled Valentine's day!


p.s. I couldn't get a good picture of the ring I got Kyle, but on the front it says "K+S" and on the inside it says "Unforgettable"...he bought me tickets to see Aqualung on May 1st! :)

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Febuary 14th



Valentine's day this year just so happens to also K and I's 20th month anniversary (it feels like it's been longer than that, huh?).



[He's currently sitting next to me cursing and combining profanities in a way few have ever heard...he's playing Tiger Woods online (hahahaha)]

I'm quite excited for tomorrow, I've had to use a lot of restraint to NOT give him his present early! I just want to give it to him and see his face light up! That's all I want, to see him completely over-joyed :)

I've got a few ideas of what to do to celebrate tomorrow, and yes, I'll admit here on my blog that it will be a day of cuteness mixed with the proper amount of sexiness ;) hahaha

I know many girls are harsh critics and find Valentine's day to be a horrible occasion created by the card companies and it exemplifies the loneliness...but to be totally honest...

I LOVE Valentine's Day!

I always have! Single or not, I love that there's a day dedicated to love! When in a relationship, I find it to be the perfect excuse to be incredibly disgustingly cute (which is what I would do all the time if socially appropriate)...and when single, I find it to be a nice day to remind all the people I love that I love them!

So yes, tomorrow will be a day of dangerous levels of cuteness...and it's a good thing Kyle loves cuteness! haha :)
In order to keep as secretive as possible, I'll tell all the details on Monday :)

I hope everyone has a lovely day tomorrow, and remember, I love you!

If dreams came true...

My dream summer music festival would not be Coachella nor would it be Bonnaroo...it would be a combination of both...which is what I'm hoping Sf Outside Lands (or Bumbershoot) will be!

Here's my dream meshing of the line-ups:

Muse, Phoenix, MGMT, Spoon, Dave Matthews Band, Kings of Leon, Weezer, Tenacious D, The Flaming Lips with Stardeath and the White Dwarfs performing Dark Side of the Moon (This is not made up, this is one of the artists listed for Bonnaroo!!) Regina Spektor, Tori Amos, Ingrid Michaelson, Les Claypool, The Black Keys, She & Him, They May be Giants, Calexico (though, I'd request Iron & Wine play with them), Tokyo Police Club, Brandi Carlile, The Postelles, Vampire Weekend, Grizzly Bear, Yeasayer, Camera Obscura, Yo la Tengo, Florence and the Machine...plus, of course, the smaller bands to open for all of these bands. lol

Personal Additions:
Death Cab for Cutie, Iron and Wine, Modest Mouse, Arctic Monkeys, Franz Ferdinand, Jack Johnson...etc.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010