Beautiful

In the Still of the Night
As I gaze from my window
At the moon in its flight
My thoughts all stray to you

In the still of the night
All the world is in slumber
All the times without number
Darling when I say to you

Do you love me, as I love you
Are you my life to be, my dream come true
Or will this dream of mine fade out of sight
Like the moon growing dim, on the rim of the hill
In the chill, still, of the night

Like the moon growing dim, on the rim of the hill
In the chill, still, of the night 

(As sung by Jo Stafford. Such a lovely voice, they don't make 'em like that anymore...)

The City Sleeps, But I Do Not...

I am back in the lovely San Diego, lying on the guest bed in the office.

Kyle & I stayed up all night last night to insure we made it on time for our flight, so after the excitement/adrenaline of running around airports wore off, and after having a filling brunch at The Big Kitchen (thanks Mommy!) the second we had a little bit of down time (we were making plans to go to the movies...) we totally passed out...for about 6 hours. Around 10pm, I stifled tears because I had missed Gossip Girl, had a mini-heart attack because I thought I still had papers to finish, and then relaxed because I realized it was all okay. My Mom had made a lentil soup & cornbread muffins, along with my favorite oven roasted rosemary potatoes (how do I survive without her?) for dinner, which she had kept on the stove warm for us :) Oh love I love her!

After eating and chatting some more, my parents and Sahar went to sleep. Kyle had missed a billion calls from his friends while we were sleeping, so he went out to spend time with them. I was too tired for any social interactions, but not quite sleepy, so I hung out with Omied until about 5 mins ago when I realized that he hadn't napped for hours and was tired, so I told him I was going to bed, and here I am, alone with my thoughts. The city sleeps, but I do not.

La-Dee-Dah

My stomach feels better today, my heart feels better today, I feel better today!


I've been nom-ing on crackers & white rice...drinking vitamin water...and my digestive system is a little less hateful. There's a bunch of school work that needs to be done, but it's not due until tomorrow/Monday, so I still have sometime to relax...at least a little bit. I picked my classes for the winter quarter, I'm taking Human Sexuality, Physical Geology w/lab, and Environmental Issues & Problems...woo hoo...

As next week approaches, it's definitely easier to just relax a bit, and simply look forward to seeing family/friends. Hopefully my shoes will get here a day early (they're arriving a day after we leave, which I didn't foresee as a problem, otherwise I would've had them shipped to SD!) so that's quite disappointing, I was looking forward to dancing around in them :/ and now they'll just sit and wait for me...poor things...especially because they've had quite a journey (I've been tracking them, haha). We're making an early payment on rent this month because we're coming back at an awkward time...and then once we're home, we get to spend a bum load on the rest of our bills! The joys of being a poor college student!

In other news, I used some left-over spaghetti sauce, threw in mushrooms, spinach, and zucchini, and turned it into lasagna :) I know, I'm quite amazing...I would've photographed it...but it's all gone, whoops!

I also watched 3 episodes of the Atheism Tapes (oh how I love BBC) and found it quite intriguing. Arthur Miller was my favorite interview, but it could be just because he's one of my favorite American playwrights, haha :) he also gets life-time brownie points for marrying Marylin Monroe, haha


As far as recent movie watching, last night I watched SLC Punk, and it was really good, sad and beautiful. Tonight, I'm watching Brick again, the first time I saw it I liked it, and I'm looking forward to watching it again :)


Goodnight, World!

Oh for Pete's Sake...

So, I have a gastrointestinal infection. Isn't that dandy?

Last night I had a crazy fever/chills/goosebumps/light headedness/blurred vision, not to mention my stomach felt like it was imploding.

It was quite the show, tears, flopping around, rapid heartbeat, totally incapable of breathing correctly, nausea. While falling towards the bed I managed to only have make it and now I have a ginormous disgusting blue/purple bruise on my thigh from slamming into the bed frame. It's quite disgusting looking, and I now have a slight limp because it hurts quite horrible when I walk.

Welcome to my personal hell.

Oh, did I mention that I have cramps because my Uterus has recently expelled a useless egg out into the world and it's withering away?

I felt like crap. If Kyle wasn't there making me herbal tea, drawing me a warm bath, and overall being amazing, I don't know what I would've done.

I was quite certain I was dying last night, but after a horrid episode of diarrhea, I eventually passed out, mostly from sheer exhaustion of pain. I awoke and felt a little better, the end of the world was not as close as I had thought, and carried on my merry way.

Today I awoke to find that my body still hated me, so I went browsing online trying to see what the hell is wrong with me. Of course I hate doing that, the internet is a scary place diagnosing horrible things. But my stomach was still relentless in it's attempt to kill me, so I decided I should at least call an advice nurse and figure out what I should do. There are no Kaiser's in WA, so with my luck, I spent an hour online trying to figure out what to do...then I gave up and called my mommy. Poor dear was awfully worried, which is why I didn't want to call her. Luckily, she's also incredibly helpful, and gave me some phone numbers. After numerous calls, and talking to an advice nurse, I'm told I should go into Urgent care.

So then I begin my journey of more phone calls, just to draw one simple conclusion: any Group Health facility will see me because they're a sister branch of Kaiser! Ta-dah! 

Shortly after, Kyle and I find ourselves in a strange, strange hospital...okay, it wasn't that bad, but we couldn't figure out how to get to Urgent care from the entrance we came in through the parking garage (wtf, right? it's called Urgent for a reason!) After wandering the hospital for a bit, we run into a kind nurse who points us in the right direction. We check in, go in, and we're soon out. I've been diagnosed with my little infection and all the doc had to say was good luck, you'll probably feel better soon! Eat plain foods, white rice, saltine crackers, lots of fluids, and eventually your body will just stop feeling like shit.

Sigh. I'm exhausted.  :(

Happy Camper Thoughts

These days, I'm quite a happy camper! This past weekend was spent hanging out/bonding with a new friend named Toni...she lives about an hour south from us in Tacoma on a beautiful ranch with horses and doggies! We ate mass amounts of food, drove back to our place and watched movies galore until we passed out :) On our trip back to Tacoma, we stopped and ate at Sonic's...all in all, quite an enjoyable weekend! It was nice hanging out with someone, haha.

Speaking of which, a week from today, we'll be in San Diego for Thanksgiving! It'll be fun! I've got a reunion girls day planned on the 24th with Jamala & Chrissy! Michael's dragging me and Nicole to see This is It with him on one of those other days *sigh* lol. Thanksgiving will be delicious and fun (I'm planning on making my infamous vegan vegetable pot pie!) and then the day after Thanksgiving we shall party-hardy!

I'm planning on making skittles flavored vodka while I'm home too, hehe! It looks easy enough, and it's the ideal time to make it...Kyle & I don't spend a lot of...well...any time drinking while we're up here, haha, and I found these instructions online earlier, and I'm dying to try it out! Plus, it'll be fun to bring to the party :) Though, it is a beer pong party...oh well, I can guarantee you that the girls will be excited to see it! hehehe

We're currently in the midst of trying to pick out classes for winter quarter...and...it's kind of bleh...I'm all done with school for now, haha. But what must be done, must be done! Thus is life...

This might sound a bit odd, and it could be my uterus being melodramatic, but I'm currently reading The Time Traveler's Wife, and I've grown a little too attached to the characters. I'm completely enamored with their story, and I find that I relate to it a little too well. I could feel my heart strings quiver and shake at every one of their painful struggles, mostly all the miscarriages. It's absolutely ridiculous for me to worry about something like that, but to be honest, I don't know if I could personally withstand such heartbreak and sadness. I was on the brink of tears contemplating it, and I don't know how people find the strength to try so many times. In the story, the go through six miscarriages...it nearly destroys them. I know that sadly, it's not an uncommon thing, and not to take my mother too seriously because she tends to blame any health problem to be a cause of my vegetarianism, but I had a cousin who had many miscarriages because she was vegan, and eventually she had to give up her veganism in order to have children. I wonder if that makes me more at risk. I know I should trouble myself with such things, but I can't help it. The majority of the time, I'm secretly enthralled at the thought of being a mother and let myself fantasize about how amazing it will be. But what if it's not amazing? What if I never have children? Oh, I can't bear that thought. So I'll leave it there. Maybe since I typed it out it won't haunt me as much? Sigh...I'm such a worry wort. I can't help it...I kind of wish I could.

I entitle this entry as "Happy Camper Thoughts" and here I am bringing myself down...so as to end this bit of darkness, I'll leave it at that. I am quite happy right now, and that's what is important.

Pirates and other Thoughts.

We went to a pre-screening of Pirate Radio last night (check the previous post about how we won tickets if you're curious) and it was fantastic. Sure I hated some characters, but I love(d) Philip Seymour Hoffman...he's a great actor, and the movie wouldn't have been the same without him. The movie does make me a little restless though...I loved the music, and I loved the style, perhaps I was born a little too late? I definitely feel that way sometimes.

Anyway, to appease me current desires, I will buy these shoes on Tuesday:

 

Aren't they just adorable?

I'm so incredibly excited for them because they're exactly what I've been looking for/reasonably priced, and they've been on my lifetime to buy list for so long! I'll wear them everyday!

I know what you're thinking...why Tuesday? Well, I'm buying them from Mod Cloth, and they offer 12% off on Tuesdays, so I'll get them a teensy bit cheaper :)

I haven't bought anything apparel wise in the longest time (aside from an undie splurge at Forever 21...but they were also on sale/essential!)

I also want Angelina Jolie's hair, as styled for Changeling. (The movie is amazing, by the way)

I almost have it, but it needs a professional touch, I know.

Hopefully I can get that done when I'm in San Diego :)

I would also prefer if my clothes were replaced with vintage styled clothes, wouldn't that be nice?

I think so. I just wish I could afford to do it myself.

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I've been thinking a lot lately about what I want to do in life, and I've come up with a few ideas...none that I've shared with anyone yet. Teaching will always be something I want to do, but I don't think that's what I want to do right now, or in the nearly future. I think it's something I would like to do later on in life. So I started thinking about the things I currently fancy, like art, music, movies, writing, home decor, fashion, photography, cooking.

Ideally, I would like to combine all my favorite things, but for now I'm currently enamored with the thought of doing interior design.

I spend all of my free time online looking at home decor/apparel...so why not do something with that, right? I think it'd be something I'd wholeheartedly enjoy :)

Of course, I'd minor in Art History, or something similar, because I do want to teach later on...or maybe I don't. Maybe (this is possibly a secret wish) I just want to be a house wife/mother later on in life. Would that be horrible?

I think not.

Thoughts on Love

It's so simple to say, and yet so powerful in an overwhelming, heart-stopping, paralyzing way. 

I love you. Je t'aime; Je t'adore. Te amo; te quiero. 

(Forgive my limited knowledge of languages, heh)

It seems as though for most people, despite it's complexities and intricities, love somehow loses it's power. Suddenly, almost as if it had never existed, people fall out of love. Or perhaps it's gradual, eventually the love, and the person they love lose their extra sparkle, and they're no longer as appealing.

That sort of thing seems natural to most people, but to me it seems unimaginable.

Not a day goes by where waking up next to K seems a little more boring than the previous day. 

Not a day goes by where I feel a little less fascinated, appreciative, or absolutely enamored with him.

I can't imagine a life without him.

Without his warm eyes, soft hair, strong arms, or perfect smile.

Love is exactly what it is, and how it should be described, yet at the same time, it seems incapable of fully describing how I feel.

I feel so absorbed with emotions; I feel so impossibly happy. The kind of happy where it feels like your heart might swell too much and explode.

It might be cloudy outside, and usually raining...but here inside we have our own little piece of paradise. The sun is always shining...sometimes it's warm, sometimes it's burning. But our love continues to flourish in the sun, in the paradise within the fort of pillows and blankets we've created.

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I apologize, my thoughts are a bit too ridiculously cheesy...but blame them on my current read, The Time Traveler's Wife.

And so it goes...

I haven't written in a while, so let's change that, okay? Kyle and I recently found out the EMP (experience music project) was giving out free tickets to a prescreening of Pirate Radio in a scavanger hunt...if you live under a rock and have no idea what I'm talking about you can look up movie info stuff here, and you can watch the trailer here!

Anyway, here was their FB status update: There is a "Pirate Radio" scavenger hunt happening the next two days. Figure out the clue and you'll find free passes to the prescreener on 11/12. Hint: 10 piers south of where The Beatles stopped to fish during their first World Tour/ X proverbially marks this spot for plundered loot.

Somehow, using our genius minds, we knew that the Beatles had fished out of their hotel room, the Edgewater Inn, and went 10 piers down to pier 57. To avoid spending money on parking, I parked in a passenger wait zone (and luckily no one asked questions) while Kyle ran inside to look for some sort of hint. He didn't really find anything, haha. With the exception of a store entitled Pirate's Plunder! That sounded perfect, so he went inside...and didn't see any indication of anything related to the EMP or Pirate Radio! Feeling discouraged, he walked out of the shop and called me...using my great words of persuasion, he went back in the store and asked if they knew anything about it...turns out, while they didn't really know what was going on, they handed him a ticket, a poster, and a ipod-sleeve that says pirate radio :) Apparently the EMP didn't do a good job of informing them of what to do with the stuff they sent them...haha.

Anyway, this Thursday we get to go to the pre-screening! I'm incredibly excited because Pirate Radio was definitely on my to-watch list...and unfortunately, I can't go and see every freaking movie I want because the theaters are so expensive these days...even matinee is still like $7! So now that we've got prescreener tickets to see Pirate Radio, we can go spend money and see another movie :) 

The Emerald City Through The Eyes of Sebastian

*Please don't steal my images, if you want to use them, contact me/credit me for them. Thank you!*

Good Morning!

Hello Seattle! Quite a chilly morning we're having, huh? At least the skies are clear, and soon it'll heat up to normal temperatures :)

However, on the topic of fall weather, I'd like to post a recipe for a delicious Lentil Soup I conjured up yesterday that was too delightful not to post! Keep in mind, I stole and adjusted it, so I don't know what it's called, and therefore, must name it all on my on...so I will call it...

Sety's "it's 40 degrees out and I'm hungry" Soup!

Ingredients:

2 cups of mixed lentils (confetti = mixed, fyi)

2 cups of vegetable broth

1/2 cup of diced tomatoes

1/2 cup of tomato sauce

1 tablespoon of olive oil

1/2 of an onion

2 cloves of garlic (finely chopped up)

2 1/2 bay leaves

2 tablespoons of oregano

2 tablespoons of thyme

1 tablespoon of rosemary

1 tablespoon of pepper

1 tablespoon of salt

1/2 cup of white wine 

1 tablespoon of mustard

*if you have Dijon mustard, use that instead of regular mustard and white wine*

** celery or carrots would work well in this soup, I didn't have any, but feel free to chop them up and add them)

1. On a medium setting, heat up the olive oil for a minute or two. Add the onions, cook them for about 2 minutes until they are clear, then add the garlic.

2. Once the onions/garlic are lightly browning (not burning), add the tomato sauce and diced tomatoes. Add the lentils (make sure to have washed/drained them thoroughly) and the vegetable broth.

3. After about 5 minutes, add the dry spices. Let it cook covered for about 20-25 minutes.

4. When it is full cooked, add enough water to your liking for the soup's consistency. Let it sit for another 5 minutes or so. When you're serving it, add the tablespoon of mustard to each bowl and enjoy!

*Kyle and I ate our soup with "cheddar" biscuits one day, and flour tortillas the next! :)*

Happy Halloween!

Hope you had a Happy Halloween!!

I sure did! :)

Meow!